Wanderings of a Thoughtless Mind: Chapter 1

here's a thought.. 

I dont really claim to be a thinker or a philosopher.. but i guess its something that i would aspire for.. 

Suddenly a sense of calm and quiet came over me.. at first, it made me restless.. not knowing what had happened.. often creates noise in ones mind..

but this was different.. silent restlessness.. I dont think, it was my mind... but my thoughts.. who had been neatly stored away, for later consumption.. It was scary the amount of quiet.. and due to which the world amplified in my head.. everything was loud.. everything deafening... everything penetrating..

Even my conscious blocking of sound was not enough to dull the magnitude of what was occurring.. 

Thus the physical restlessness.. and pain and the throbbing.. 

I covered my ears and sat.. till I could hear no more.. the echoing stopped.. the noise moved on.. to its next unsuspecting victim..

And I remained, still throbbing.. I guess residual resonance.. still soar.. and absolutely still.. let myself get used to the sound of my heart and my breath as the main two sounds in my head.. get used to the dulling noises of my own psyche.. talking to me.. voices in my head.. don't know what the hell was going on.. but it felt good..

better than before.. better than after.. better than ever.. but still confusing... non leading.. non ending.. 

finally it all subsided.. the noises, the voices, the throbbing.. and all that was left was the quiet.. nice cool quiet..