Am i sleeping?

I don't know how they do it..
Artists, musicians, writers, the whole lot..

How do they visualize.. or rather how do they translate what they see, hear, feel, imagine into a physical tangible and beautiful work of art?

Its boggling.. i try and try.. but all that i do is step into the universe of the experience and then i can't share it..
Its like going for the most beautiful holiday to an exotic location, but forget your camera, or if you have a camera then your battery is not charged.. and even if all of it is in place, it's raining and you cant take your camera out..

Its frustrating..

even words don't seem to be coming out..
But Im transported more often than before..
Its like my mind wants to get lost..
but doesn't want to share where it's gone..

Dreaming has its perks.. you have an excuse..
but it's almost like all of life is a sequence of dreams..
no memory of the minute that has past..

Well, i suppose that it's because it doesn't know either..
skipping from reality to reality..
trying to make sense of what it's all about..
Where, why, how? crawling through..

Crawling in..
Bathing in doubt,
and no consistency..

how does one learn moderation, if there are only extremes?

And how does one return to our reality, if one doesn't even know awake from sleeping?

Or does one just enjoy the experience and hope never to truly awake?