This one's about Control..

I need it back, I thought,

I feel vulnerable and weak,

My life is never disorganised,

Its out of my hands, the control i seek.

How should i get it back,

through fear, madness or depravity,

each sounds worse than the other,

but i have reached a state of necessity.

Fear is the easiest,

but is control through fear what i seek,

Madness is random and complex,

depravity's chances seem bleak.

Should i just accept it,

move on like the others,

for so long I have tried my best,

to keep this control tethered.

Necessity turns to want,

want turns to obessession,

i cant sleep any more in peace,

for my mind is occupied by consumption.

Consumptionof the new,

consumption of the old,

the control i want has transfered hands,

So i hope for the best and do what i'm told.